05.21.09 - 01:34 PM
Ick
Gene discovered I got a weird spam virus on my greymatter blog so while I'm in the midst of fixing that, please feel free to visit me on my twitter http://www.twitter.com/oranjielub. If you follow me I'll follow you too ^_^
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04.09.09 - 03:48 AM
My grandmother passed away today. I don't think I've cried so much for someone in my life. I'm crying now as i type this.
She was over 90 years old and was active. Even though she had severe arthritis in her legs, she did her best to go out and do her missionary work. She loved every single person in her family, (even the fucked up ones) and was literally the glue that kept us all together. Even at her age she was a vibrant person and fiercely independent. She never wanted to be a bother to anybody and refused to leave her apartment to move in with any of us.
My grandma was 16 when she had her first child...she had 8 children total, and all surviving today. Out of 8 kids she had 15 grandchildren and 5 great-grandchildren.
My grandma's friend who lived in the next apartment down was the one who found her. She came by last night at 10PM because my grandma had left her door open, my grandma was in deep sleep during that time. She came back at noon the next day to check in on her and saw she was not breathing. I was at work when Joseph called me around 4 to let me know that she had passed on and I cried like a crazy person at work.
Joseph and I were the most upset...we cried until our cheeks were raw red and our eyes puffed out like goldfish. He lifted the sheet that covered her in bed and I broke down to the floor and cried. While my aunts and uncles were sitting around in her small apartment as we waited for the coroner, I flipped through one of her schedule books because the officer on the scene needed a social security number. She was always really organized and always wrote down her future plans. I noticed an entry she wrote down a couple days ago...she was going to L.A. in a couple weeks for the Jehovah's Witness Korean convention...but while she was down there she was going to get together with my aunts in LA to buy me a Korean wedding gown.
My aunts told me out of all her granddaughters, she wanted to see me get married most of all. She was there when I was born, helped raise me when I was young, and was deliriously happy when Scott and I got engaged. I'm unable to stop the tears, I miss her so much.
I love you, Grandma.
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03.29.09 - 04:39 PM
Streetfighter II
I have buyers remorse for sure. I kind of want to take that xbox and return it but Scott is in love with it. It sincerely makes me wish that I made him pay for it entirely.
Don't get me wrong, Street Fighter 4 is absolutely awesome...but I haven't gotten so much of a chance to play it because with every open amount of time, Scott has been playing Resident Evil 5. I tried playing a little bit with him, but I absolutely HATE horror games and I could barely stomach playing more than 10 minutes at a time.
SO to this stupid xbox, I have not only lost around $275, I lost my fiancee as well. Bleh.
Well if you ever by chance see me on xbox live, my username is Sakura 48~ find me if you can~!
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03.23.09 - 01:38 PM
Street Fighter
This shows how terrible I am when it comes to impulse buying. On Saturday night Scott and I were bored out of our minds (We're trying to stay in more in order to save money for the wedding) and Scott asked if I wanted to play a video game with him. So I reply "I want to play street fighter". He's like "Street fighter II on the Wii?". I brilliantly say, "No, Streetfighter 4".
As a man, Scott will take advantage of any opening I give him. So he drives us over to Best Buy and we buy an xbox 360...but not ANY xbox 360....the new RED xbox 360 elite with the Resident Evil bundle. Not to mention the new controller and the game itself.
SO! I spent $550 just to play Street Fighter 4. More to come later.
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03.21.09 - 04:14 PM
Woes
Since I'm having the wedding on a beach I'm pretty happy about not having to go to a wedding dress fitting (I was planning on buying a cute summer dress from the mall or something) but my mom is now saying that it's a Korean custom that the bride and groom wear the matrimonial clothing and have a photo taken with the entire family. Ugh. She asked me if I would prefer wearing a white dress or a Hanbok (korean dress). I had to think about it for a while but I told her I prefer the Hanbok because at least then I wouldn't have to bother taking care of it on my end because my mom would.
My problems with Hanbok is this...I haven't worn a Hanbok since I was a kid. The last time I went for a Hanbok fitting, the store owner couldn't find one that fit me because my chest was too big and I was too tall.
I'm not bragging (actually it's more of a complex for me --;
but I was cursed the unusual size of a D Cup (that is SUPER unusual for a Korean). Even at Kathy's wedding when I went for the bridesmaid dress fitting, the wedding coordinator had to special order another size for me because the zipper couldn't budge up one inch under my armpit (it was embarrassing). And I ended up with an extra large dress which was baggy around my stomach because the dress was shaped to accomodate extra large size. =_=Also my height is 5'9 (again I am not bragging, it is DEFINITELY a complex for me) and I tower over all my Korean girlfriends. The Hanbok store owner was unable to find me a gown that reached the bottom of my feet. The Korean Hanbok gown is SUPPOSED to reach the floor, but for my height, it reached my ankles. The storeowner kept laughing (she herself was 4'11) and said I had the most unusual body proportions she's ever seen and kept asking my mom if I was half american =_=
At this point my mom is now debating whether or not ask my aunts in LA to help her find a store there that would have one in stock.
As if my self-esteem and body complex wasn't bad enough as it is.
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02.20.09 - 05:03 AM
Don't mind me, just being dead.
Blech. As much as I love Scott and I love the idea that I will soon be married, I hate wedding planning. I hate wedding talk. I would want nothing more than to just run off to vegas and get it over with in 2 hours. His parents are just absolutely bugging us to a flowery death with all those "what will you be doing" questions. Apparently the answer "We just want a beach wedding" isn't good enough these SEVEN MONTHS BEFORE THE WEDDING DATE. I understand that Scott's mom is feeling down about our wedding in Hawaii because she didn't get the chance to invite any of her friends to her daughter's wedding (it was already too full) but I really wish they would understand that both Scott and I are NOT planning an elaborate scheme for this. We weren't even planning on having a rehearsal dinner or reception because both of us are too broke (and too lazy) to do it. My mom actually wishes me to just go to vegas too. (Since she's not paying for anything =P).
Well anyway, since the subject matter has been brought up, we have our bridesmaids and groomsmen (possible!) lined up. Joe (my cousin), Shawn, and Jeremy will be grooms for Scott and Kathy, Vanessa, and Marian for the bridesmaids. Since I am fabulously broke I can't chip in for anyone's ticket so I know my side of the bridesmaid party may be subject to change. I might have to get Khoa to slip in for a "bridesman" if one is unable to make it XD
Soooooooooooo...Lego, Gene, and Nikki~ you guys are the only ones that visit my blog~ will you be making it to the splendors of hawaii so we can all get drunk on the beach together?? =D
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01.10.09 - 05:01 PM
Got Engaged!!
I totally forgot about my blog to announce the news but if you guys haven't seen me on AIM or MSN, I'll yell it one more time...I GOT ENGAGGGGGGEEEEEEEEDDDDDD!
Scott proposed on Christmas Morning in our house. I won't go over too many of the details but let's just say his plans for a public proposal fell through when he realized how much he was shaking XD (it was cute).
We're seriously considering having a beach wedding in Virgin Islands or Hawaii (I wanted to think about Mexico but I've read some stories online where people got ripped off while they got married there because the wedding planners nickeled and dimed them to death). If I know you and you know I love you, please come!!!
That's it for now, more details to come later~
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